I'm sorry for the disappearance. Life grew really busy in September and then I hit a depressive episode so I was unable to keep up with this site nor was I able to do much of anything. I'm very behind on the Otherkin challenge, but I plan on getting back to it in the next couple of days. I will also be gett
I don't know.
That seems to be a cop-out answer, but it's honest. I don't know how I'm Otherkin or why I'm Otherkin. I could say "well, my experiences and feelings can mean X", but that's about it. I generally feel that it's psychological in nature, but it could also be spiritual. That's all I know. I just know I experience X and feel like X. The why or how is far from being answered and I can't even begin to try. It's not like it truly matters to me because it won't change what I feel.
So...there's a short answer and one that seems silly, at least to me.
Where to start, where to start...
When I first joined the Otherkin community it was through a therian group on Myspace. I was 14 or 15 (my sophomore year of high school) and I was actually looking for a vampire group, which I went through a brief phase of at that age. Anyway, I joined the therian group because a lot of what it talked about was similar to what I felt, but I said I was a wolf therian because everyone was a wolf therian so I had to be one too. It just seemed easier to fit in that way and I did have moments of feeling canine-ish.
At some point I found Trueform Within (which I still miss -- I was devastated when it vanished) and eventually the old incarnation of Werelist. I'm not entirely certain as to how I reached those communities, only that I did. I then went around through a variety of kin-types including, but not all inclusive,:
- Polymorphic angel
- Polymorphic demon
It was a thoroughly confusing time due to the nature of being a polymorph. When you feel like a variety of things quite a bit it leads to identity confusion and uncertainty. Sometimes it can still lead to uncertainty and sometimes it's rather a pain to not be able to go "I am X". Currently I have just started to say I'm a polymorphic lion because it generally fits and it's the closest to what I've got for explaining myself.
That's really about it in regards to the history of my identity so I guess I'll leave it at that.
Mostly. It's kind of a hard question to answer because there's no "set" form and polymorph is the closest that I can. I have polymorphic tendencies with no real core form though it seems to mostly resemble a demonic lion with all the characteristics of a lion, but with a "darker" flavor and a sentience that lions of Earth don't appear to exhibit.
Link to challenge: http://thehornedgate.wordpress.com/2013/05/30/30-days-of-otherkin-challenge/
My name is Arawn Bheur,or rather it's what I choose to go by online. Many of you have probably seen this name roaming around the internet and it's probably just me particularly if they're claiming to be a polymorphic lion-thing. Maybe you'll even see the name in conjunction with an account titled Annwyn.
Who am I?
Obviously I'm Arawn. I identify as a polymorph with a lack of a core form internally. I am more than aware I'm physically human (I'm typing on the computer, aren't I? I also happen to be eating a donut.) It's an internal identification and I feel it may have something to do with psychology though it could also be linked to spirituality. I don't know and don't particularly care. It doesn't change anything about me. You'll be learning more about this identity over the next 30 days as I complete the "30 Days of Otherkin" challenge, which will be linked to in the next post.
On a more normal front, I am currently job seeking and I have a degree in history. I plan on going back to get a Master's degree in history or anthropology. Or I might just go back to school and get a bachelor's in marine biology or animal sciences if I can. I haven't decided and it all depends on if I can get a job in order to support myself and my career goals.
Following that route, I have a bunch of pets (1 dog, 1 rabbit, 1 fish, 1 snail, and 12 hermit crabs). I am also fostering three puppies, one of whom I'd love to keep but I doubt that that will happen unless I can somehow get a job in the next month.
I guess that's about it for now. It's kind of a piss-poor introduction, but you've got a basic understanding of me now.
As always, feel free to ask any questions that you may have.
Welcome to my site! This post is primarily a test post and making sure it appears appropriately on the website. A true introduction post will be written later on when the time is to be had. In order to help better use this site, these tags may appear frequently due to life circumstances and just what i enjoy:
- 30 Days of Otherkin (challenge)
- British Isles
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